tokimi: (cheshire)
One of my friends just posted on their LJ about how they wished they could just pack up and leave, moving 3000+ miles away. In retrospect, that's exactly what I did when I graduated. I think, when I was in New England this summer, I was a bit disappointed and deluded about how everyone I still talked to would be happy to see me, to hang out again. I thought that more people would call and make time to actually see me while I was there, and I was disappointed when I ended up seeing some people once (not CS~~, you're 8hrs away) or not at all. I saw Steph twice on my trip, and once was a total fluke because she ended up in NH when I was out there. It just makes you think, about the prospect that everyone is getting on with their lives and still moving forward, and that, no matter how much we may want, you can't just go back to how things were when you were younger.

I don't even know if I would want to. I was a pretty unhappy person when I was younger. And I think I'm finally on the right track in my life to be a happier person than I was then. 10-15 years ago, I was depressed, suicidal and in a situation I didn't have any control over. To think back on that reminds me that even though I've lost some of the friends I had then, I've still made new friends. More importantly, I'm a better person than I was then.

Enough reflecting.

Today I have to take my iPod back into the Apple Store and hope that it breaks this time, because it did last night, and it did it again last week. I'm hoping that the problem occurs in the store, unlike last week, so they can actually do something to fix it, because I'm pretty frustrated about the whole situation. It takes over an hour to resync my until music/movie collection onto it. That's right, I started a movie collection on it, and it's pretty fucking badass that I can watch TV shows and stuff on the freakin bus. Which, incidentally, does not stop the wanting for a bloody netbook.

My new apartment gets pretty warm when the sun's out. Southern facing windows ftw?

Dragon Age Origins is rocking my socks off right now. Such a fun game. I'm 25hrs into it, and working my way through the Deep Roads for the bloody pussy dwarves, the last mission before shit hits the fan with the politic baddie. I made Alistair proposition me, and I wonder if he'll get hurt if I boink the elf rogue? I can always buy his love back, I'm sure.

Taking a break from Aion, though, I really should just nose to the grindstone work out the last 220% of my level so I can go back to killing people and helping other people kill people. I don't want to play WoW, like Shattered and some of the Immortal people do. Boo to WoW, though, I admit, some base level of curiousity to seeing Icecrown Citadel. Such an addiction! Ugh. Cruising around a 310% drake is fun though.

Justin needs to get me a Demonoid invite. I want the other A23 rares album.
tokimi: (Default)
Ok. So. I resisted getting a MySpace for a very long time, and when I finally did it, I think I got up to about 30 people I knew, most of whom were friends in real life, and some who were online. Now, MySpace is a bit barren, and everyone's all about Facebook. Stop following whatever is trendy, for fuck's sake.

Not to mention, my parents are on Facebook, my sisters and some of my other family are all on Facebook. There is no security whatsoever if one of my friends puts up a strange pic of me in their gallery and it's not protected, so screw that. And I know, I know there will be shit that'll be posted and commented on or whatever that I do not want my family seeing.

Also. I blame this on [ profile] natsume since he sent me a text with "pics of stuff on my facebook". Fucking trendwhores.
tokimi: (kiss)
Sorceror & Chanter )

Kyle and me in game, being dorks.
tokimi: (contemplation)
Just wanted to make a note, again, about how insane the character creation is on Aion. The game launched on Tuesday, and it's been a lot of fun.

The screenshot's taken just after I hit 25. I redyed my armor purple, and went to change our legion banner thing. Max graphical settings, so the game looks -amazing-.

Anyhow, Absinthe, my Chanter )

At Sea/Tac

Jun. 20th, 2009 06:49 pm
tokimi: (quiet)
So, not knowing how long it would take for me to get through security, I insisted on coming about 2 hours early. I got my boarding pass, checked my purple suitcase and got through security in less than half an hour. Now I'm sitting at the gate waiting and killing time. Gonna snack on something in 20 minutes before I get on the plane, but not a whole lot going on other than that.

And when I wrote that, that was the case. However, they switched what gate we're leaving out of to an entirely different terminal, so now I'm in a completely different place. Which sucks, but what can you do? Meh. I'm in the right place now, and just sorta sitting here, talking to Kyle and Quarla, and occassionally Mik on AIM. I was totally gonna fininsh Ulduar from the airport, if I could find an outlet, before they changed my gate.

I dropped my electric shaver last night and it broke, and now my legs are hidden underneath knee high black and purple stockings. Huzzah. And a skirt, but always a skirt. I'm thinking about getting a pair of sandals at some point.

I'm also going to start a photo project, concering the plush Murphy that's currently in my purse. I need to take a pic of him at the gate, I think. Since I couldn't find anything that had "SEATTLE!" right there that would be easy to take a pic of by myself. I wonder if I could convince one of the airport people by the gate to hold him while I take the pic. It's pretty silly, but Murphy's gonna get pics taken of him EVERYWHERE.

Also. I love technology. I love the fact that I can be anywhere, pretty much, and be online from there. Like right now, online, from the airport, as are a few people and it's awesome. Things are so different now, but then again, I haven't flown in 7 years, so it's no wonder. And all that rot about how much shit's changed between now and then.

Oh, and I am tempted to buy booze on the airplane, and end up in Cali drunk. That would be hilarious, for Quarla.

Agenda for the week:
Saturday: The beginning! Flying to Cali
Sunday: Hanging out with Joyless & Mik
Monday: Beginning of the Epic Cross Country Trip 2009, Corona, CA to Denver, CO
Tuesday: Day 2, Denver, CO to Lincoln, NE, to hang out and stay over night at Steph's
Wednesday: Day 3, Lincoln, NE to Toledo, OH? I believe is the next step. Robby & Matt + Q's friend(s)?
Thursday: Day 4 Toledo, OH to Buffalo, NY: Niagra Falls, I think
Friday: Day 5, Buffalo, NY to Plattsburgh, NY: The end, for now!

I think that's about right. And we'll chill out at her place in Plattsburgh for a few days before the trip to Boston. I'm thinking we'll be in Boston before the 4th of July so we'll avoid all that drunken traveling and the like.
tokimi: (hats off)
I invade California in 18 hours or something like that.

Cory, Mandy, Tim and Olivia and I are going to get lunch, chill for a little bit, and then the Currans are taking me to the airport, where I'll be bored for a while after getting through security. Bringing my DS, my ipod, and the new camera that I bought a few days ago, so I can take better long distance pics than I could with my old one.

Q's picking me up from the airport, and then Sunday, we're gonna hang out with Mik and Joyless from WoW for a bit before settling down and kicking back. And then, Monday, we start the epic trip.

Now I'm finally sleepy, and I have to be up in a reasonable amount of time to do the dishes, and pick up a bit more before I leave.
tokimi: (hrm?)
I think I'm climbing up the dork ladder again.

My new guildmate and fellow mage, when we aren't theorycrafting mage crit rates, is recommending anime and telling me I have to watch it. So I'm downloading Death Note 1-37 as we speak. This conversation has gone on for half an hour or more. We already busted out various anime themes and titles, and what we own on DVD. Hence the musical choice. (I still <3 you Hotohori.)
tokimi: (blushing)

So many things I could be writing about right now. But only a few lines, since I can't seem to sit down for long enough to write all of those things.

There's still a lot of stuff I need to do. And want to do. And want to make of my life. I want a house, I want my marvelous, custom built kitchen. I want a couple of cats, a dog or two, and Murphy (who will not be renamed Bread). I want to be a pastry chef. But to do all that, got to straighten shit out first. Always had a reason, never had much motivation until the last few months.

I'm actually pretty happy (content!) most of the time, when not in fits or episodes of anxiety, crazy or depression; those having come much less frequent, though. I'm inspired to work on all of those things I've been putting off in therapy. And those quirks that seem to entirely wreck my universe that are mostly of my own design. I attribute this to mostly to one of the most amazing people I've been blessed to meet. I don't know how they do it, but they do, and it's incredible to me. I'm very happy to have met them, and I'm glad that they're in my life. I will no doubt go on about (----) in the future, but for the moment, this being a quick update that's not entirely about them, it's not the time.

I have hesitated in writing about (----) for a few months now, and I don't particularly know why. Sometimes, things are like a bubble and the slightest outside pressure can pop it.

I'm 25 now. And it freaked me out for a while. I think I'm okay with it. I told (----), about something in their life, that it's a transitional period, that just because things are crappy now, doesn't mean they always will be. And really, it's the same thing, about my life. It's just easier to tell someone else that, than it is to believe it yourself.

Mandy and I went to the ballet a few days after my birthday, because they were performing Swan Lake, and it's been one of my favourite pieces of music for ages. I cried at the end of it, it was so moving, so beautiful. I will probably make an effort to go back and see Swan Lake everytime it's performed at the PNW Ballet after that. I really enjoyed the performance. I still mean to go to an opera at some point, but there's only two I really want to see, namely Don Giovanni and Aida.

My lip ring's been healing up pretty nicely. I got my ears all gauged up to 18s, including my cartiledge piercing. I thought they would all hurt a LOT more than they did. It was very anticlimatic. I'm thinking of maybe gauging my lowest earring to 14 or 12 to put in some of the more interesting pyrex "squid" pieces of jewelry. I'll have to look up some pics later. This being a quick update before I lose the determination to write.

I quit the WoW guild I had helped build and ran for the last 5 months. Pointedly, it had gotten to be a lot of stress. When I spend the first half hour or more of every nightly conversation with (----) bitching about it, it's gone too far. It wasn't fun anymore. It was more work than it should've been, and I shouldn't have been the only person busting their ass to make it all work out. After nearly a 2 month ultimatum, it's how things fell out. I admit to quitting in a fit of utter frustration and some what emo-ness, but it wasn't a huge surprise, and shouldn't have been, for the officers that it happened. I'd been saying I wanted to if things hadn't changed. And they didn't. In the two short weeks since I quit, the whole guild has fallen apart, which, in my opinion, pretty much underscores the fact that I had been single handedly running the guild.


Lastly. [ profile] quarla might need a traveling buddy for when she moves out to NY in late July. She asked me if I wanted to come, and offered to help pay for plane tickets to Socal and then back to Seattle. I'm heavily considering doing it, as it'll be a blast driving cross country again, and to see more of the sights (and maybe peoples along the way, [ profile] dmoira). And it's a chance to see everyone back in NH whom I haven't seen since I graduated high school in 2002. I have no doubt that I can convince someone to meet us halfway in Burlington, Vermont to make the Margo exchange so I could go back to NH for a week or two and then fly out of Manchester or Boston to head home. It would be awesome to see everyone back east again, it's been so long. I need to email my dad about it, and see about his plans.

And that's all I'm committing to for right now. Once again, I'll try to write more again in the future, but I say that alot, and it never comes through.
tokimi: (sorrow)
Halfway through October.

The Sox lost the Championship game. Boo to that.

I'm considering what sort of under the table jobs I can get. One of my guildmates on WoW got a job as a phone sex operator. Our GM suggested "Lucy Taco" as her operator name. This is hilarious. I wonder how hard it is to do the job.

I should write more. Even if it's smut. There's half a story on my smut journal, which I still haven't shared with interested parties here, yet. Not sure how to really write more. I need to update my journal more often. I say this a lot. It doesn't seem to have any effect.

I've been experiencing bouts of depression.
tokimi: (h)
My friend sent me this. Joss Whedon's musical internet show starring Neil Patrick Harris and Nathan Fillion. Enjoy. I'm going to get this on DVD when it comes out. It's awesome.

tokimi: (prayer)
I don't know if it's caffeine or insomnia, but I am still awake. This isn't a cause for celebration, especially as that I shall be busy through most of the day in a few hours. Therapist, then some shopping, then home, then dinner, raiding, and then finally, after 9pm, being able to kick it and relax. I don't know how I will manage this.

I'm suddenly inspired to change the layout and colours on my Livejournal. This will surely take some time. On that note, I also want to reformat my desktop, get it all working without its shitty memory leak, find out why my laptop will randomly disconnect, and set up a remote desktop on my PC so I can access it on the desktop... from 5 feet away. So lazy to even want to do that, and even lazier to not have done it yet.

I do not believe that reformating your troublesome desktop is good to attempt when you haven't slept yet.

Tashina wants to go see the Dark Knight. I am totally up for seeing it again, and I convinced her to see it at the Imax. It's playing at the Pacific Science Center through to September, so there's plenty of time. If any of my local friends are interested (Liam, Dawn+Drew, Shushu, Rachel, [AMY, if you lived here right now] etc, etc), it will probably be a weekend, but not this coming weekend. Suggestions are welcomed. Txt me through my profile, or leave a comment, or whatever for ideas.
tokimi: (Default)
boo... first entry.. not sure what to do here... this is gonna be fun, right? Damn straight...

Alright.. Usako's making me do this.. she's the one who said it would be fun.. she had better be right and keep her bloody fricking psychotic knives to herself, safely away from New Hampshire and my precious body.

Anyways, we'll see... :)


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